Rewriting life

This month has been monumental for me in terms of personal growth. Sometimes when you feel pain, either physically, emotionally or spiritually, your coping strategy is often to put a lid on it, cover it up, repress it in the hope that if you don’t acknowledge it will hopefully go away.

The mind is very powerful if you have a traumatic moment in your life, it can cover it over so much, that you are not sure if it ever happened. However the body can only take so much of keeping these feelings, emotion and pain locked in. Then what! Your body starts to let you know enough is enough, pain. When you have pain, in particular chronic pain, you get used to living with it, then when you feel unwell, you put it down to your chronic pain condition, in my case Fibromyalgia.

My feet have been very painful for months now and I keep saying, I won’t go to the doctor as I know what it is. Only the pain got unbearable.
I gave myself Reiki healing and also used sound therapy with the use of a tuning fork over the pain. There is definitely something going on there, when I dowsed my feet with my rose quartz pendulum it went mad, sweeping in a massive arc and after I used the tuning fork on the area and again dowsed the painful area the pendulum remained completely still. What’s that all about!

So I decided to visit the surgery to discover that I had plantar fasciitis. The wonderful doctor nearly sent me through the roof when he examined my foot, oh the pain. As you know I do not take any form of pain relief for my condition, so when the doctor suggested Tramadol I sat aghast in his room. Hell no! I am not going down that route again, he suggested anti-inflammatory pain killers and again I declined. I want to treat this holistically, I know that I can and it works, I just needed confirmation that this was not Fibro and something else.

Gentle exercise, rest used together with healing therapies I believe is the key to healing the body. This may seem a bit way out to most people, but don’t knock it until you’ve tried it. You may feel that it does not work for you, just don’t try it once, give it a go a couple of times, give your body a chance to ‘rewrite its pain pathways’.

I was practicing yoga a couple of weeks ago, there was only two of us in the class plus my Yoga teacher, we were practicing Yin yoga, using props for support to hold poses to a longer length of time. (Give it a go it’s great!) Whilst I had my hips supported on a bolster, trauma release excersies (TRE) kicked in and my body started to rock side to side; so much that I actually fell off the bolster, I was laughing so much. I just let it happen, I know that, it is my body ‘rewriting life’, undoing all the trauma and stress that I have had over my 46 years on this planet. I do not try to repress it, it is just rewriting my journey. I don’t have to re-live the feelings and emotions, the gentle movement as my body shakes and sways is so safe and very comforting and it’s doing its thing.

Back to school ….I faced my fears from over 30 years ago and returned to school. A place that has held so many painful memories. The morning dawned and whilst I ate breakfast at the hotel, I felt physically sick, just like I did when I had to go to school all those years ago, I sat with my herbal tea, as my body gently tremored, I knew that this was a very important part of my healing journey.

As soon as I arrived back at school, the smell in the corridors overwhelmed me, the place seemed so much smaller than I remember and quite a lot of the class rooms had changed in their use. It wasn’t until I stood outside a classroom, that I realised that I had a suppressed memory, it returned when our then teacher had displayed behaviour that is definitely not acceptable these days, those of us that had him for lessons, were able to talk about how awful it was, he has since died; so no legal action would be taken against him.

This was a place, where I was bullied for 7 years by a group of girls calling themselves the hard gang who were in my class. Hopefully they will have developed into kind and loving human beings and if they have their own children, they are not bullying or being bullied themselves. I strongly believe in Karma and the power of the universe, what you give out comes back to you!

My dad told me ‘to stand up for myself, it’s part of life, it makes you stronger’. Yes, it does that, but it also makes you different. It makes making friends challenging, it also makes you resilient to life, but deep down there is a small part of your soul that asks; Why? Why me? What did I do to deserve this?

Well, the real answer is; I dared to be different, to stand out from the crowd, not to conform to what was expected. Does that make you a target? Probably, but I do not care anymore, I am the stronger person. I am rewriting life.

I will not change so people will like me.                                                                                         I will be myself and the right people will love the real me.”

 

Change your Energy – last months post

The Power of TRE – if you want to know more about Trauma Release Excersies

This is me….. – about me

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Change your Energy

Since my last Blog in August, so much has happened that September has almost passed me by, that’s the thing with Life, blink and you can miss it. None of us know how long we have on the earthly plain, there is something to be said ‘don’t put off until tomorrow, what you can achieve today’. You just don’t know what tomorrow may bring.

I thought I had got my pain under control, but oh no, my body had other ideas, at the beginning of September I returned back to work and felt I had gone back 3 years. The pain was so intense, I had almost forgotten what it was like to feel well. Just well; without pain, oh what joy.
I still refuse to fill my body with pain killers and try to work through the worst of it. At one point the pain was so bad I was in tears and at working sitting at my desk sobbing. Pull yourself together. I was struggling, I was at a low ebb, and everything seemed to be closing in on me. I spent the whole day hobbling around in pain, with my toes, ankles, knees, hips, elbows and wrists all screaming out with pain. Whilst trying to pretend all is well; Enough, I had had enough of pretending all is well, when I went to work the next day, rather than say I’m good when someone asked me how I was feeling, I told them it was not a good day and I was suffering. How cathartic that felt.
I have always tried to hide the pain I have been in, a couple of colleagues commented that they had never seen me cry, my husband tells me I’m the strong one! I don’t always want to be strong, I want to be honest about how I feel. It is all very well staying positive and battling on regardless. However, sometimes you need to say how you feel. Change can have a massive impact on how people see you and how you can empower yourself.

I recently attended an open day at the Yoga Studio and an Energy Medicine class. When I was first diagnosed with Fibromyalgia I went to a talk Sue Mutlow gave on Energy Medicine and I was hooked, I started to go once a week to learn more about this amazing self-healing technique. I feel it is so important to share this valuable Holistic therapy. The way I can describe it; is as accessing your own energy system and healing your mind, body and soul, just what I am all about.

Donna Eden has researched and developed the exercise that Sue shares with us.
It works on the basis of tapping and massaging points on the body, often using a figure of 8 to increase your energy levels. Energy is the medicine that you can access and activate to start healing your own body. It is about creating a balance and harmony encouraging your energy to flow, it uses postures and exercise’s some include lying down, others energizing your body and also protecting your aura.
By carrying out specific exercises you can move the energy in your body to unblock areas where it may have become stuck, it works with meridians, chakras and energy pathways. It is fascinating and can make you feel energized and restore harmony in your body. I believe it sits alongside Chinese medicine and can be related to reflexology.
For me it is an effective form of pain management, but you don’t need to suffer from chronic pain, it can assist you to balance out the energy systems of your body on a daily basis, Sue often suggests carrying out some of the exercise whist standing in the queue in the supermarket, I have yet to give that ago!

Sue encourages you to carry out a daily energy routine that includes The Three Thumps- locating K27, the Thymus and Spleen points. This set of three exercises can jump start your energy system, helps focus the mind and corrects the energy from flowing backwards via your meridians. To help improve your coordination, vitality and healing by competing The Cross crawl. The Wayne Cooke posture helps you focus and aids concentration. The Crown pull opens the crown chakra to aid higher inspiration, assists in your memory, and stimulates blood to the brain.
It is a little bit like yoga, but different, most of the exercises can be adapted to suite your physical capabilities. You can get to know all about your triple warmer and the meridians that relate to the immune system and your fight or flight response.

I really enjoy all these exercises and once learnt you can include them as part of your daily life, I suggest that you go to a class with a qualified practitioner. When I feel a pain flare up starting, I start to change my energy, it gives me the opportunity to recharge my cells, we can become unbalanced and this can lead to disharmony in the body and as I wrote about in last month’s blog ‘easing your dis’.
Sue herself is inspirational and Eden energy medicine needs to be experienced. Like with all things, don’t just try it once and expect miraculous results, I believe you need to give any holistic therapy time, keep trying it, then if after a few sessions it doesn’t work for you, thats ok, but don’t give up after one session as you don’t feel any different. Your body needs time to adjust.

I am not sure what caused my pain flare up this time, I am not even going to give it my energy to start analyzing what, if or how it started.
Change can have a massive impact; I have never found embracing change easy, but I’m learning that change can be good. If you can alter your energy, the way you feel, think and are can make a difference and you can start on your own journey to heal yourself.

 

For more information please contact Sue Mutlow – Positive Steps for good energy

 

Links to previous blogs

‘To Ease my Dis……’

The Power of saying NO

I am going to enjoy this!

The Dawn of a New Day

The Power of TRE

Gonging It!

Fibro or Flu?

‘To Ease my Dis……’

When you stop!   Suddenly you notice your own breath, you hear the sound of silence and you smell the scent that evokes a feeling, a memory. Life is so very fragile, yet we race around filling our lives with things, possessions, envy and that imbalance can cause disharmony of the mind, body and soul maybe leading to disease.

“An illness that affects a person, animal, or plant : a condition that prevents the body or mind from working normally.”

So you seek medical intervention and get a diagnosis. A label. Then what? You are maybe prescribed drugs to ‘ease your dis’.

I want more; I want to feel well, I want my life back, I want my mind body and soul to be in harmony with each other. We are all energy and maybe we need to use that energy to heal ourselves, rather than fight with life to become somebody that we think we should be.
I am still on this massive journey of self-discovery and Holistic healing, and one of things I have learnt is, if you don’t keep at it, the dis-ease starts to creep back in.

This summer if you can call it that, has proved to me that in order to feel well, I need to continue with the various therapies I practice. I slipped back into a mind-set of copy and paste, I spent almost a week of my summer break in bed or on the sofa feeling tired and burnt out and lacking motivation, it was easier to sleep that get up and drag my weary body for a walk with the dog. I blamed the weather!!

I had just returned from a fantastic 2 week holiday in the sun to a cold, wet, and grey British August. The weather may have had an impact on my Fibromyalgia symptoms raising their ugly head and giving me a side swipe, but actually I now believe it was the lack of yoga practice, Reiki, TRE and gong that was my problem. I had lost my mojo.

I wallowed in self-pity for a week, feeling sorry for myself. I had finally stopped working and racing around filling my life and time with things, possessions and most certainly envy. Did I feel better, Hell No! My toe bones hurt when I got out of bed in the morning, I have had a constant pain in my foot for weeks, this pain was then followed by my knees then my wrists and fingers, oh the joy of living with chronic pain. I started to feel envious of the people around me, who just don’t get what it feels like when your body is not at ease with your mind. Then along came a local Holistic Festival. The night before I was debating if I would go or not, too much effort!

Well I went; I am so glad I did, I saw a lot of friends and like-minded people from the Holistic world, it was just what I needed to kick myself back into the land of ‘you can start to heal yourself’.
I attended a few workshops bringing down my higher Chakras, a wonderful Gong Bath with Sally and learning to use a tuning fork.  Having been to the tuning fork workshop, I decided I needed to buy an OM tuning fork for myself. This is a therapy that I could use at home very easily between gong baths. I was already starting to feel better for having a gong bath, so using tuning forks had to be a good thing too, as it uses sound vibration to help heal the body.

Luckily for me Sally sells them, so I did not have to go home and look online, I bought one from her, in a beautiful purple bag with a mallet, as soon as I got home that evening I tried it out, the dog loved it and also my husband, who is definitely not into all this ‘hippy’ stuff, he asked me to use it on him as he has had some muscle pain in his shoulder. He has informed me that it is feeling better, but claims it was probably the couple of rounds of golf he played. I think I know otherwise!!!

A week later and I am feeling so much better, I am using the tuning fork on a daily basis, giving myself Reiki, carrying out my TRE (trauma release exercises) and Virginia, as soon as I have finished writing my blog, I will roll out my yoga mat and practice at home.

I know that if I practice all the therapies I use regularly, I will be able to ‘ease the dis’ of my mind body and soul.
Remembering to enjoy the moment, absorb the sights, sounds, smells and feelings of this wonderful journey. Namaste xx

 

If you would like to read my previous blogs here they all are, if you have any questions or would like more information, please Contact me.

Gonging It!

Fibro or Flu?

The Power of TRE

The Dawn of a New Day

I am going to enjoy this!

The Power of saying NO

Please clink on the following links if you wish to find out more information on the Holistic Therapies I Blog about.

Sally Free – Tuning Forks  

Virginia Compton – Yoga

Jo Hamilton – TRE